Being a Seed

I have grown up hearing the message abut the Parable of the farmer scattering the seeds. Until today, the story didn't apply to me, or so I thought. It states that "the seed on the rocky soil represents those who hear the message and immediately receive it with joy. But since they don't have deep roots, they don't last long. They fall away as soon as they have problems or are persecuted for believing God's word." Umm hello my life 5 years ago. THen "the seed that feel among the thorns represents those who hear God's word, but all too quickly the message is crowded out by the worries of this likfe and lure of wealth, so no fruit is produced."  I think that pretty much speaks for itself. My prayer from here on though is, "the seed that fell on good soil represents those who truly hear and understand God's word and produce a harvest of thiry, sixty, or even a hundred times as much as had been planted." Matthew 13:1-23

How does a day completely switch?

Okay so today started out really well. I did my devotions on Matthew 4-6. I can't believe how God is opening my eyes to things that even though I have always been raised in a Christian home and gone to Christian schools, they never clicked. I have always had a major issue with worry, even to the point of being sick, literally, worrying about things. Matthew 6:32-34 "...your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today."  I love my God. He knows exactly what we need exactly when we need it. BJ had a dr's appointment today and I was beginning to worry about it before I was doing my devotional. I am so in awe that all I can say is Thank you and I love you God.


Then we go from that high to my afternoon, which I swear I had to be in the queue to get the calls from customers who were incredibly upset. It even got to the point that my supervisor even asked why I was getting those calls. Before this last week, I would have gotten incredibly upset and just let it ruin my day and not act in any godly or willing to help the people calling in. Today though I wanted to help them and do the best I could for them not just because it is my job but because I know that is what God wants from me. I also would have come home in a horrible mood and let it ruin any time I would have with the family. Today, I came home vented to BJ for a few minutes and then moved on. All I can say is, He is AMAZING!

Thoughts

Today was the first morning I got up before the kids to do my devotions. Take a wild guess what happens. No sooner did I get my Bible and sit down to start reading then Logan wakes up giggling and yelling for mommy. So I go into his room and he is asking for his train books. I'm thinking ok that's awesome bub, I'll get you those books and you can read while mommy does her devotions. He is content until next Libby gets up. She will usually just crawl up into our bed and lay down. However, this morning she walked out to the living room before coming to our room so Logan saw her walking by and all he wanted was to get out of the crib and play with his sissy. I got him out of his crib and the two of them wanted to watch some cartoons, Logan specifically trains.  I get them set up go back to my room to begin reading and Caitlyn gets up. Good news is she only wanted to lay down beside me. I started reading finally about 20 minutes later than I had planned. But God knows what to point you to right when you need it.

I read Matthew 1-3. There was 1 specific verse that jumped off the page. Matthew 3:8 "Prove by the way you live that you have repented of your sins and turned from God." John the Baptist was saying this to the Pharisees and Sadducees while he was baptizing. Does this not specifically speak to us Christians now? How many times do you hear people talk about not wanting anything to do with church or talk about Jesus because they say that they have known Christians before and know how they act and they would never want anything to do with those people? How many times have I been that Christian that someone would want nothing to do with? 

Today my goal was to be nice to people. I know pretty general huh. The main thing I wanted to focus on was not talking about other people and not putting them down. Man do I have a lot of work to do.  God has his work cut out for Him. Within being at work 2 hours, I had already started in 6 times. I told one of my best friends what my goal was for the day and as soon as I started she would say "That's 1." By the end of the day, I was starting to become more self-conscious about what I was saying. Tomorrow I am going to have the same goal and also work through the next few chapters of Matthew and see what God wants me to work on. 

Up until this last weekend, I would never have posted anything like this or even said anything like this outside of my small prayer group (which I just got involved in) because I was afraid of what anyone reading would think about me. Here's the thing: Let them think! Let them see what I am writing and let them think about what I am saying and what God is doing in my life. He is working on me and I can see the impact He is having in my life already and I can't wait to see what is coming!  Be prepared. More is coming. I can feel it! 

Easter

My Redeemer Lives!!!!!

Here goes nothing

I have been doing things since last time I posted, but never got around to actually posting anything. I will definitely have to pull things out and see what I have done. I also want to be able to use this as a memory of things my crazy family has done and thought about what is going on in life. So here goes nothing!

Tomorrow is Easter. I think this has to be one of the most important Easters for me. I am in total awe that God sent his only Son to die for all of our sins. Having my little boy turn two yesterday makes it sink home even more. I couldn't imagine letting him die for people who don't even believe or love him. My husband was getting ready to leave for work the other morning when our oldest, who is 5, said that I can't wait for Easter because it is all about the eggs and candy. He just stopped in mid-step and had to tell her about how Easter was all about Jesus and how he came to take away our sins so we could go to heaven. It was the first time either of us realized that we don't think our kids know yet about Jesus. Granted their all under 5, but still we have got a lot of work to do. They heard today at our church Easter egg hunt about Jesus dying on the cross for our sins and then leaving the tomb and rising again. I was so happy to know that we are in a church that takes care of every member of their church, even the littlest ones.

So Happy Easter to everyone tomorrow! I hope you are all as blessed as my family is.